Monday, April 26, 2004

" a different sort of freedom "

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so lonely and hot here. i wish that some friends could come, even though i most likely would be too busy to enjoy their stay. i guess that it's fine though, because there is a certain freedom in being the inside foreigner; everyone is expecting you to be different and crazy and not understand the language, so when it comes true, no one is that much surprised.

last night i got bit all over my body by mosquitos, it made me hella paranoid and crazy. my dreams were all disturbed and the night only advanced because i pulled the covers completely over my head which made breathing both difficult and maddening. other than that things are going great. i hope that it remains this hot, cause i can dig it. the service aspect here is a little uncomfortable, ie-maids and servants/drivers. they sort of have that service as their job, which should be fine, but it still feels as if there is a discriminatory aspect to it. for fun, i like to wash my own dishes just to make them all surprised.

if there is one thing that i do enjoy though, it's that the people here live life very much to the fullest. there are extremes in the personalities which rival any of the same caliber of passion that is in the bay area. it's crazy to think that even though there are distinct yet subtley covert levels of discrimination , there still is a general sense of pride in oneself that keeps them up and positive. i love that.

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