as much as we'd like to think that we will age like a fine wine and get better over time, i bet that around 50% of us will just be who we are right now, for the rest of our lives.
this bodes well for those people who are nice, loving, caring individuals, with a flare for making others comfortable and altogether creative and willing to have a great time at all cost.
but for those people who are raging lunatic assholes with a penchant for being mean, rude, disrespectful and altogether horrible, it's a truly horrific thought that these people will reproduce with vapid like-minded equally-dishonorable counterparts.
and maybe again, it's not so black and white even. i'm sure we fluctuate all over the place throughout our lives, and if i said that we weren't able to over time shift focus and evolve our personalities, the world would be filled with a curious amount of really annoying people.
lately i've been thinking about what i really want in the current state of my life, and i find that the want and desire of those things that are seemingly unattainable, still do not deter me from holding those things, ideals, and states of being as an attainable goal.
i create, i torment, i lean, i dream, i do a number of things to forward myself. though, it is also astounding the amount of time i don't do anything at all. if i spent the same amount of time doing awesome things as i have spent zoning out and being slightly worried, i'd have a "career" by now, but perhaps not the most engaging and shining personality (sidenote: toot your own horn, because someone might not toot it for you [side-sidenote: get your head out of, or into, the gutter]).
it's cruel the flip of everything; the trade-offs and the sacrifices we make. and as this month of july comes to a close, i am looking forward to all of those chances to prove my metal. i am looking for the next mooring to make fast my anchor.
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