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weederman23 (15:58:18): go to bed yous!
TaurusKAT (15:58:57): heehee
weederman23 (15:59:04): i see you with far eyes
weederman23 (15:59:16): um, ... roar
TaurusKAT (15:59:20): how is the heat treating you
weederman23 (15:59:27): it's nice
weederman23 (15:59:41): got back fropm china a coupla days ago
weederman23 (15:59:49): still a lot of work to do, so not much outside time
TaurusKAT (16:00:02): you enjoying the work though?
weederman23 (16:00:02): and if i do go anywhere, they got the a.c. thing going on here
weederman23 (16:00:26): yeah
TaurusKAT (16:00:33): nice
weederman23 (16:00:34): the work is steady and good
TaurusKAT (16:00:53): when do you come home
weederman23 (16:01:34): i don't know
TaurusKAT (16:01:57): uh oh.
weederman23 (16:02:06): my re entry into thailand has given me until june 3rd
TaurusKAT (16:02:09): i hate the question mark
weederman23 (16:02:20): sooo, unless ihave something happen, i might just plan for a summer thing
weederman23 (16:02:35): and i am really and genuinely torn
weederman23 (16:03:54): like, i want to get my stuff from home, and i miss everyone
weederman23 (16:03:57): a lot
weederman23 (16:04:01): yet, on the other hand
weederman23 (16:04:10): there is steady good work here.
TaurusKAT (16:04:12): i think you should do what makes you happy...but of course, i'd love it if you were here
weederman23 (16:04:18): and that i's thailand doesn't hurt either
weederman23 (16:09:49): and the other thing that usually happens when i go back home, is that i have a great time reintegrating myself into the albany/bay area thing, then i get depressed. like massively depressed then i start to question my path in life and end up getting all crazy and paranoid and it's just not pretty
weederman23 (16:10:25): but as i am already here, maybe i should stick it out until everyone i are about forgets about me, then surprise them with a special visit
weederman23 (16:10:26): lol
TaurusKAT (16:11:39): haha. You need to do what is going to be best for bay...and it kinda sounds like you already know what that is.
weederman23 (16:11:48): at this point i really doen't know what the plabn here is. i have no real prospects in america, anmd the same goes for here...to a point. i mean i can be useful here, and still spend some time on my personal craft of photo and film, and what not, but i don't know if i'm just doing the same repetitious thing here that i was doing at a cuppa tea.
weederman23 (16:12:08): ahhhhhh you are so good at don't forcing any point on me, and that's what i like about you i do
weederman23 (16:12:27): letting me come to my own conclusion with subtle questioning of the Self
weederman23 (16:12:29): grrrrrr
TaurusKAT (16:13:05): raar.
weederman23 (16:13:40): you ther, me here
TaurusKAT (16:21:12): true true. In my experience the alternative family and kinship that emerges from sweet dear little albany, while wonderful and supportive...can also be suffocating at times...preventing one from growth...or at lest clarity. That's why I'm really happy for maren being in South America ....she's able to be and connect with herself in a way that albany did not permit her
weederman23 (16:22:44): i agree wholeheartedly
weederman23 (16:22:57): did you experience a lot of that feeling when you were in france?
TaurusKAT (16:23:32): absolutely
TaurusKAT (16:24:25): i had no obligations to anyone else but myself and i think that at this age that is really important
TaurusKAT (16:24:42): foreign countries seem to allow that more than places within the U.S
weederman23 (16:25:13): it's true!!!
weederman23 (16:26:09): yet at the same time, here i need a little more freedom
weederman23 (16:26:19): cause i seem to be really stuck in this office
weederman23 (16:26:23): but it;'s grand anyways
weederman23 (16:26:32): brb
TaurusKAT (16:26:35): right...well you have obligations
TaurusKAT (16:26:53): you're there specifically for work
TaurusKAT (16:27:11): After your job...what's the harm in staying for you,.,,?
TaurusKAT signed off at 16:44:25.
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