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exerpts in the vein of passing through the looking glass; you always think that you know yourself best, and for the most part i would say that's true, but what happens when someone you know totally deconstructs the crap outta you, and you feel as if the little man behind the green cutain is not wearing his pants? it's sort of strange is all.
[disclaimer: all of these things were said, but who knows how much of it i actually edited out. meaning, in light of the truthful nature of the chat posted below, just know that we are actually friends, and not some weird people who wandered into an online chatroom or something equally boring.]
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weederman23 (11:25:13): i think that in a past life i met you picking berries in the woods, but you ran away, because i was dragging a stump tied with a cord
Daffie26 (11:25:29): this is rue.
Daffie26 (11:25:44): true. because....I'M DAPHNE THE WILD UNATTAINABLE NYMPH
weederman23 (11:26:02): that's okay, as long as i can take your picture every once in a while
weederman23 (11:26:20): cause i don't want to have you, i just want to be able to sit next to you at moments
weederman23 (11:26:22): is all
Daffie26 (11:27:02): that's a warm thought.
weederman23 (11:27:14): and true
Daffie26 (11:27:33): thank you for sharing it
weederman23 (11:27:43): sure, it's yours to have
Daffie26 (11:27:46): you are sitting in a rollley chair BACKWARDS
weederman23 (11:27:49): you can put it in your pocket
weederman23 (11:27:56): so rollypoly
weederman23 (11:28:00): i am
weederman23 (11:28:18): like a bad kid in an 80's brat-pack flick
Daffie26 (11:28:23): I GOTTA SNEEZE
weederman23 (11:28:25): bless you
weederman23 (11:28:33): it looked good though
Daffie26 (11:28:45): THE SNEEZE?
weederman23 (11:28:56): yes
weederman23 (11:29:03): you're yelling at me and it's okay
Daffie26 (11:29:07): thanks
Daffie26 (11:29:27): i always yell. because i can't help but use CAPS
weederman23 (11:29:40): caps
weederman23 (11:29:41): yes
weederman23 (11:29:45): i understand
Daffie26 (11:30:13): well.
Daffie26 (11:30:18): i think it's getting to be that time.
weederman23 (11:30:21): i think that i am about to be in trouble too
weederman23 (11:30:23): so yes
Daffie26 (11:30:29): be good.
Daffie26 (11:30:31): and hi
weederman23 (11:30:31): but i am on MSN chatty chat thing
weederman23 (11:30:35): hi
weederman23 (11:30:47): now that i;ve seen your face, how can i work?
Daffie26 (11:31:08): I DON'T KNOW.
weederman23 (11:31:19): well, i'll just have to deal i suppose
Daffie26 (11:31:36): i suppose
Daffie26 (11:31:55): bye Mr. Laurel
weederman23 (11:32:04): byebye
weederman23 (11:32:26): oh god don't play with your hair
weederman23 (11:32:40): do you want me not to do any work today at all?
weederman23 (11:32:51): it's too much and not enough at all
affie26 (11:33:11): oh bay. you love the idea of being teased
weederman23 (11:33:40): this is very not new news
weederman23 (11:33:41): but yes
weederman23 (11:34:00): and i'm not a complete asshole about it, because there's no goal in it
weederman23 (11:34:03): it's true
weederman23 (11:34:32): it makes me somewhat boring i suspect
Daffie26 (11:34:41): boring?
weederman23 (11:34:51): because i'm so content in just studying someone
Daffie26 (11:35:13): this is true of you and many of your subjects
Daffie26 (11:35:21): you know what I FIGURED YOU OUT!
Daffie26 (11:35:31): ready?
weederman23 (11:35:33): you did?
weederman23 (11:35:36): oh do tell
Daffie26 (11:35:46): think about the art you do
Daffie26 (11:35:46): but think about what you want
weederman23 (11:36:04): want through art or in general
weederman23 (11:36:06): ?
Daffie26 (11:36:27): what you secretly want is someone to study you!? no. that doesn't sound right.
Daffie26 (11:36:55): photography and film is capture the experience
Daffie26 (11:37:00): or creating an experience..
weederman23 (11:37:07): mmhmm
Daffie26 (11:37:14): okay.
weederman23 (11:37:30): oh...
weederman23 (11:37:33): is there more?
weederman23 (11:37:34): ?
Daffie26 (11:37:43): you as a person must be able to step back and look at the big picture while simultaneously zooming in at the details
Daffie26 (11:37:53): you are keeping yourself out of your own life frame!!!!
Daffie26 (11:38:21): this is why you are an artist
weederman23 (11:38:24): i will not deny that some of what you portend to state about me may or may not be true
Daffie26 (11:38:28): and this is why your art is so GOOD.
Daffie26 (11:38:32): hahaha
weederman23 (11:38:36): i
weederman23 (11:38:50): i enjoy allowing people to be themselves in front of me
Daffie26 (11:39:19): but you don't let yourself in the frame. this is why your art is not pretentious because it's real art. you are keeping yourself outside.
weederman23 (11:39:26): and in that way my work is a celebration of that quality in my subjects
weederman23 (11:40:03): there has to be a physical distance, but the intimacy goes deeper and well beyond everything that everyone thinks of me or my work
Daffie26 (11:40:19): but a part of you, the part that wants "more" wants the subjects to celebrate you
weederman23 (11:40:37): mmmm
weederman23 (11:40:43): i suppose maybe
Daffie26 (11:40:48): love for you might be someone who wants to frame you artistically and study you, the way you eat, and laugh and sleep
weederman23 (11:40:59): it's more of a recognition thing for me ingeneral
weederman23 (11:41:09): i love the small details
weederman23 (11:41:40): just to know that someone understands my intent perhaps is enough for the work environment
Daffie26 (11:41:48): this is true
Daffie26 (11:42:09): but I'm talking about your approach to love is similar perhaps to your approach to art
weederman23 (11:42:14): and it's that it usually extends beyond that session for me, where i have a hard time dealing with 'reality' in all of it's blazing glory
Daffie26 (11:42:19): and that my friend is over-analyzing
weederman23 (11:42:26): yeah
Daffie26 (11:42:27): (me not you)
weederman23 (11:42:31): oh
weederman23 (11:42:33): no
weederman23 (11:42:35): it's valid
weederman23 (11:42:49): i love to be deconstructed, because i put myself through it every other thought
weederman23 (11:42:51): it's fine
weederman23 (11:43:10): and if anyone, at least someone i know who knows something about me
Daffie26 (11:43:32): no i think I just simplified something very complex to very simplistic forms that are unfair to the complete person you are.
weederman23 (11:44:27): well, for the sake of our communique, i believe that you are riding a wide line, and that ain't all bad
weederman23 (11:44:44): makes the turning easier
Daffie26 (11:44:52): riding a wide line...i'm not familiar with that expression
weederman23 (11:44:55): no need to regret statements made
weederman23 (11:45:22): well if you're in trouble or "out of line" you're "riding a thin line" or "skating on thin ice"
Daffie26 (11:45:27): okay. i just did not want to devalue your art or your love. i just think there may be a connection
Daffie26 (11:45:30): got it!
weederman23 (11:45:38): so i just reclaimed that and yeah..you have
weederman23 (11:45:51): oh i definitely know the connection
Daffie26 (11:45:51): Bay.
Daffie26 (11:46:02): you are a marvelous human being.
weederman23 (11:46:05): maybe i haven't really written it out in so many words before
weederman23 (11:46:09): a-thank you
Daffie26 (11:46:19): be good to yourself in that pink shirt and baseball cap
Daffie26 (11:46:33): cha cha cha
weederman23 (11:46:35): and you are one of the lovliest unattainable subject friend wood nymphs that i know
weederman23 (11:46:43): i will
weederman23 (11:46:53): i'll be online if you get sick of homework
weederman23 (11:46:56): hah
Daffie26 (11:46:57): great.
Daffie26 (11:46:58): thanks
Daffie26 (11:47:01): bye Bay
weederman23 (11:47:04): yup
weederman23 (11:47:05): peas
Daffie26 is away at 11:47:24.
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