" you think so huh? "

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as we gradually get older, our bodies not only start to naturally develop into whatever shape time, environment, food, and level of physical exercise deems. our corporeal beings shift and change in the light of these waning moments, and our outlook starts to change based upon these self-induced (and sometimes socially-aided) judgments.

what happened to all of the other little kids i used to play with? we laughed our days away; boisterous as huckleberry plums, razzled to tears with the open joy of rolling in grass, and lazily slept the golden afternoons away huddled on blue mats, the apple juice boxes being cleared by looming phantoms and large people.

they grew up, grew older, more confident or insecure, laden with happiness, or guilt, or depression. all of these people i once knew grew older, harder, bitter, or did they? i am going through this detachment-from-all-i-know period, and it's starting to make me more and more unsure of the lasting impact of my presence on this planet. it's as if once you take away your known environment, you must really begin to sift through character traits, personal and socially constructed mores, clinging on to what makes you "you," and coming to very detailed very specific conclusions about the validity and content of your character.

or maybe i'm just making my brainical thoughts more(and ultimately) over-complex. life is about moving on, moving up, moving at all. and i am wiggling my way through this part of my life the best way i can. it's interesting the amount of people on this earth; our individual minds , thoughts, feelings, and senses of "self" constantly seemingly at war with one another for some sort of public evaluation. but why not just be you, and be happy?

i think i'm there. sometimes, when it's quiet around me, and i can just be.


since i'm going away for a few, i thought i'd leave everyone with some over-laden heavy thoughts to nosh on. you're welcome.

tonight your homework is to make a list of your favorite things. these could include media such as books, movies, music, or make a list of your favorite smells, memories, or textures. find someone to have a snack with and share these lists with this other person until you both learn something about something. in this manner everyone can more understand the nature of humanity, all over a plate of cookies and a tall frosty glass of milk(or soy milk for you lactose intolerant peeps).

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