Saturday, October 09, 2004

" in the still of the night "

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at night i reclaim myself. it's in the private hours of my time here, where i try and re-evaluate all that i've done here, and also what i am going to do.

why is it so had to just be who you are sometimes? it really shouldn't be. but i do feel like i am a different person fighting for some sort of personality validation. all the times where i am misunderstood or in a sense confusing those around me, it's a wonder that i have the ability to communicate at all.

everyone here should be so lucky that i'm not some ranting lunatic; selfish and unabashedly rude. in sharp and gleaming contrast, rather i am a calm at times understanding individual that just wishes to be himself and do good work. that's basically it.

homework for tonight:

reclaim a little piece of yourself, and try and list the things you are good at, and want to accomplish. scribble something on a post-it, and stick it on whatever you tend to look at the most. this way you'll never misunderstand yourself, and can properly face the world outside.

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